The Ball-I'm beginning to hate this day.

Okay I couldn't think of a good title for this post. But hey he's mad at me so I guess that might work! Why is it that the last little while I just feel like I can't do anything right? So today is the Navy Ball....He likes to wear his Dinner Dress Blues to it rather than his regular dress blues. I took his shirt to be laundered and pressed, bought him a new pair of pants (apparently I lost them while he was deployed because when he got back and after 2 years of not wearing them they were missing) I have hemmed them and pressed them, took his Uniform Jacket to have the new rank sewn on....and at the same time during the interim I have misplaced the box where his cuff links are, a button off his jacket is missing so that is my fault because at some point during the trip to the seamstress and back the button is gone. I was sitting there while she sewed the rank patch on so I have to call her this morning and see if she has it. I have no idea where I put his dress socks so I guess I will have to buy some new ones along with the cufflinks.

This morning when he said the button is missing I guess I asked him too many times if he was sure....I asked him "What button?" (He answered) "Are you sure it was there before I took it over there?" (He answered) "It's not the button that is in the jewelry box that you took off?" <---My bad Should have stopped at "What Button?" But silly me I tend to ask more questions than he thinks is appropriate. So i've only been awake an hour and it's allready been a shitty day...just wait till I have to put on pantyhose!

We don't have a lot of money right because we changed jobs so I had considered not having my hair done but with it being so long and my lack of skills regarding the back part I had changed my mind about what I was going to do with it and suggested we drop by the store and get a barrette so I could pull the front part back...well that prompted a bit of a snappy reply to him about not caring about my hair (it was more colorful than that but i'm being nice) because apparently I decided to do a bun, which looked stupid--leave it straight and kinda curl it--doesn't look formal enough and now a barrette?!?! HOW DARE I be worried and self concious and hate the way that my hair looks and consider more than the one option!! I'm always doing that though...considering my options and mentioning them out loud...You'd think I would see someone about that! But no I haven't seeked professional help for that habit yet.

I am beginning to feel bad about myself some days and I've been terribly depressed and alone now that I am home by myself and I couldn't find any job that I felt was "up to my standards and experience". Nobody seems to know that but me....I mention it sometimes...silence...okay then i'll go do the dishes. I'm sure it will get better. I've got 9 hours till the ball i'm sure my puffy eyes will look fine.

CRSC

Combat-Related Special Compensation
Simply put Combat-Related Special Compensation (CRSC) provides military retirees a monthly compensation that replaces their VA disability offset. This means that qualified military retirees with 20 or more years of service that have "combat related" VA-rated disability will no longer have their military retirement pay reduced by the amount of their VA disability compensation...... (read More from Military.Com)

I Blame California

E Coli is everywhere isn't it? (Ummm I have a very awful explanation for why this keeps happening in cali if you wanna know :) )
So when I can't lose weight because everything that is healthy and that we are told is good for us in this world is causing death, paralysis, kidney failure and god only knows how much more things---Well ya'll I blame California!
It's not me...after all I have always know that processed food is better. The more preservatives it has it's safer for me. After all nothing harmful can actually survive when they cook something for so long (Dinty Moore Stew) and then pump it full of preservatives (Cheetos and Twinkies) that's all we get is pure uncontaminated food. So for all those wondering what's safe to have for dinner tonight...Forget the Salad Bar, Don't even think of eating Subway's fresh ingredients and steer clear of the produce aisle--Instead head over to the frozen food section and pick up some TV Dinner's and know you are giving your family a safe meal tonight.
Pick up some of those Lean Pockets--Veggies galore in those! And once you get done eating all that sodium you will find that you are a bit thirsty. Be Careful though...don't reach for the tap water you never know what critters will bite back when you drink it, instead grab a $1.50 bottle of water on your way out of the store!

A Wasted Saturday

This morning I got a phone call that woke me up. I didn't get to it in time and was still so sleep groggy I didn't want to call back so I will call back later. But anyway it woke me up...rather early considering what time I went to bed as well. So I made my breakfast, coffee and sat down to check my email. Nothing exciting so I did my normal thing...click on a favorite and keep going from there. Of course I can normally end up 100 million miles away from where I began! Which is what happened. I'm not sure how many times I bring up things that begin with "So the other day I was researching some things online" Okay I really do RESEARCH things online because I have to start typing up the newsletter for my volunteer job.....and I look up a bunch of stupid stuff as well...I mean my latest search list:

• NMCB 18
• TAMP
• Gerbil
• Door Moldings
• Carpet
• Roller Girls
• Support Military Families
• Cancer
• Gerbil Advertising
• Jobs That Pay you to do nothing <---Didn't get anything useful in case you are wondering

Okay but enough about that...Anyway I went to my usual boards...realized that sometimes I think about typing something that might be offensive to others so decided against posting anything...and found my way on YouTube. Watched some good video's, one got me to thinking about when Hubby was gone....it was a tribute to Military Wives and part of a poem that was in the video struck home "For those that figured you would remodel the house while they are gone to fill your time....Then realized you didn't know what you were doing and wished you had some help" I just began to picture myself one late night in my bathroom with a sledgehammer beating the vanity up with it because it wouldn't come off the wall. I knew there were screws but I didn't know the damn thing was gorilla glued to the wall as well....and I was almost in tears because I couldn't get it and I knew if hubby was here he would get it off...I dunno it made me laugh.

Oh and the gerbil thing....Does anyone remember the nasty little gerbil commercial from years ago...It looked like a mouse on crack and it used to dance around...I could swear it was for Domino's or something...But anyway that stupid gerbil would freak me out!!! I was looking for it online but since I can't remember who it was for...I can't find it. So if someone can point me in the right direction-most appreciated!

A Friend & A Fleeting Conversation

Well I got to talk to an "old friend" today for a few minutes...I'm not going to mention names but it was someone that I met on yahoo while my husband was deployed. The last 6 months of his deployment kinda sucked. I was so busy the first 8 months...doing support groups, emails, taking care of everyone else I didn't have time to think about me. Then everyone else came home and the emails stopped, the phone calls stopped, the support groups stopped....All I had to think about was me by myself. I was suffering from insomnia and never slept....so it was great because I could stay up to talk to hubby on the computer and after he had to go work I chatted with "my boys" as hubby called them. Soldiers mainly, a couple marines but all over in the sandbox except for one in Bosnia.

There was one who really helped me survive every day and not be so lonely. I know he probably doesn't know it or even think about it but he really did make my days better....when I would log on I would look and hope he was on. Because he didn't want to talk to me about my breasts or sex or anything like that...he didn't try to impress me (I don't impress easily) he was just there to talk about nothing with...and of course talk about his wife. We talked about his wife and my hubby A LOT LOL

So I was able to talk to him for a few tonight....things didn't go as smoothly as they did for my hubby and dealing with coming back...or maybe mine just doesn't talk about things that much. But it was good to hear that things are going good for him now. It saddens me when I hear about guys having issues when they get back....it shouldn't be that way but I can understand why it is. But he had to go quickly, for now I'm happy for a few minutes with an old friend, even if he is virtual.

Wish I was a Workin Gal

Well i'm trying to find a job....not as easy as one would expect. Although I am getting quite tired of people saying to me "Oh well you should be able to get a job anywhere!" Like i'm not looking or something. I can get a job anywhere...too bad I am looking for a good paying job, doesn't require weekend work, not downtown, in an office, business casual, involves computer work instead of drinking coffee and sitting on my butt behind an 18 inch steering wheel!

It's funny how once you say you can drive a truck that's all people want to label you as. Ummm did someone forget the 6 years of management, computer, office skills that I have?!?! Don't you see on my resume that I can manage a body shop with my eyes close AND tell you what is wrong with your car?!?! What about my great customer service skills...you know how people call me in when they have to deal with the tricky customers?!?!

Oh yeah I forgot...I have a CDL so i'm a truck driver.....a good truck driver but nonetheless a truck driver...Job hunting sucks. By the way I have a killer resume-

So onto other things....right now I have forwarded my resume onto a staffing agency. They have a great job that I would love to get $13 an hour temp $16 an hour after permanent hire...not quite what i'm used to making but hey all those jobs are taken at the moment!

The guy at Job Service says "What were you making in your last job?" Well the last job I had I was paid by the mile so that is hard to compute...."Okay the last hourly job you had?" Ummmm about $21 per hour....."What is the minimum you will take per hour now?" Rolling my eyes and shuddering I whisper....$10....he said to put down $15. Yeah right...so I guess i'm not actually looking for a job here then! So I humored him....put down $15 and went home and changed it online to a more realistic wage....I could get more than $15 but then only in the field I was in--Autobody. Too bad those jobs are all taken right now.

"Tommy" (not his real name but I must protect the innocent) said my resume was quite impressive and he would keep it near him in case his new hire estimator didn't work out....I'm sure the mortgage company would definately understand our late payment...once I tell them how impressive I am.

It's off to an interview for me....for what job you ask?!? OHHHHhhhhhh I forgot to mention didn't I? Truck driver my dears...what else?

You think your MIL is bad?

Had I not read this story was from Salt Lake I could have guessed...married in August--Baby due in May--Hmmm gotta love the honeymoon!!
Bride's Parents Charged With Kidnapping
By DEBBIE HUMMEL, Associated Press Writer
1 hour ago

SALT LAKE CITY - A pre-wedding shopping trip for a 21-year-old bride ended with felony charges against her parents, who she says kidnapped her and drove her 240 miles to Colorado, trying to talk her out of the nuptials along the way and holding her until she missed the ceremony.

"I've never had a case quite like this," Utah County Attorney Kay Bryson said Tuesday after charging Lemuel and Julia Redd with second-degree felony kidnapping.

Bryson said he met with the couple's daughter, Julianna, and her now-husband, Perry Myers, before charging the parents. "It is strange that parents would go to that extent to keep an adult daughter from marrying the man that she had chosen to marry," he said.

The Redds told their daughter they were taking her on a shopping trip Aug. 4 and then drove from Provo to Grand Junction, Colo., according to Provo police Capt. Rick Healey. Myers, 23, called police when his bride didn't attend a pre-wedding dinner with his parents that night.

The Redds spent the night in Colorado and drove back to Provo, about 40 miles south of Salt Lake City, the next day, Healey said. They arrived after the young couple was supposed to have been married in a ceremony that day at The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints Temple in Salt Lake City.

"I was totally confused and manipulated," Julianna Myers told KTVX-TV in Salt Lake City. She said she supports the charges and hopes her parents get help.

"They had their concerns, their reasoning," she said. "Honestly I don't understand. It had nothing to do with Perry."

Bryson said after reviewing the police investigation it was clear a crime was committed.

The couple, both students at Brigham Young University, were married in the temple on Aug. 8, Myers said. They are expecting their first child in May.

"We were just glad the way it ended and she just came back and she was OK," Myers said. "We've gone forward since then.

Lemuel Redd, 59, and Julia Redd, 56, were charged Friday and are scheduled to make an initial court appearance Oct. 26. If convicted, they could face one to 15 years in prison.

A call to a listing for Lemuel H. Redd at the address in Monticello, Utah, listed in court documents went unanswered Tuesday. No attorney for the Redds is listed in court documents.

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