Thoughts on life with a Navy Chief through the eyes of a wife. Supporting the Troops, and just trying to get through life!
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Thursday, December 15, 2005
My new ring
4 years ago I got an engagement ring for christmas. Now this year I got a NEW ring for christmas. Since I lost my other one :( This ring is amazing!! It was the one I wanted and dearest hubby said I could have it. It was a little more than I really thought about spending but it's so pretty. 2 carats!! I'm still trying to get used to it. It's very sparkly LOL I've put a picture up of my new ring. It's the same thing except we got it in white gold not yellow gold as the picture shows. I am very lucky to have a man that loves me enough not to buy me a new ring but the kind of man that looks at me and says that I can get whatever I want....that I can be selfish for once because I never am. It has the two bands and one is the 3 stone past present and future band....I think that was very fitting for us since it's not an engagement ring and then wedding band but it represents our past that we have shared, our present that we are enjoying and of course our future.
He was so funny though because after we bought it and such he looked at me and said Okay now i'm getting a drink, you get a ring and I get an Orange Julius!!
One Meal At a Time
New Laptop
When we went in and looked at them and saw the one we wanted it was a little disheartening that we were standing there and nobody was asking if they could help us. So finally I went up and found a mgr type and said I wanted to buy this laptop. I hope those other people don't work on commission. We bought the advantage plan so they will do an accidental replacement should we drop or damage or break this one. But also will fix it for 2 years free. Even replace the batteries. But when we bought it the cashier rang it up and said "how will you be paying for it?" Hubby smiled and said "Will green do?" LOL He pulled out $1200 in $20 bills. We took the money out of the ATM LOL But anyway now that I have my super little laptop I will be writing more hopefully.
Saturday, November 12, 2005
Totally Committed
Moral to the story….if you are going to make the choice to pull out in front of a semi truck. Be totally committed and just go for it. Don’t waste time being wishy washy about it. Do it and be done with it. I am the first one to give someone driving a car the right of way but if I give you a hole and you don’t take it when it’s available you are lucky if I give you a second chance. You will also be lucky that you aren’t seriously hurt. After all my truck takes a lot longer to stop and does a lot more damage than your plastic unibody Saturn that is for sure!
Midnight Ramblings
We are currently in Wyoming visiting our daughter and we are under a load to Utah for Monday so we are going home tomorrow to pack up the rest of our stuff so we are ready to go on Monday. I think I will end up running some errands during the day on Monday while he goes and unloads then he can pick me up when he is done. I am working on a couple posts about some of the stuff we have seen etc but right now they aren’t ready to post yet. I need to get to bed today was very tiring. I got woken up early by hubby because we went through some bad weather between Denver and Wyoming. Wind was blowing pretty bad and had rolled over 3 semi’s in a short distance. So it was time for me to put my clothes back on and get in the front seat as well. If you are going over it’s best if you are awake and in a seat belted in than flying around in the sleeper (naked LOL). It’s getting to be that time of year though. Our choices to get to Utah were I70 (chain law which means it is very bad and no way am I slinging chains in the snow!!) or I80 (high winds, slick roads, blowing snow…did I mention HIGH WINDS!?!?) so we chose I80 and of course to see Pip’s as well! Hubby has been asleep for a few hours I think it’s time to go join him. Update laters!!
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
Just A Test
Monday, October 31, 2005
I'm Back
Saturday, October 22, 2005
Too Little Sleep Too Many Thoughts
You know, sliding down the bed so my head is halfway down and my legs are sticking out the covers, trying to turn and slide off the bed so it doesn't move now that I have finally gotten out from underneath his arm. So each morning it's this prized move where you almost want to do a big cheer because you have now contorted your body and used every muscle to steady yourself as you perform some 13 year old's gymnastic move! And you turn around and see them laying there...still asleep and try to sneak out of the room.
Too much to do and not enough time I suppose! I have to do emails this morning. I have to come up with an agenda for a conference call next Saturday. I struggle with this because each time I try to talk about certain things SOMEONE (i'm not going to name names here!) thinks that we should take it slowly and concentrate on doing nothing and "figuring out the future of the ombudsman program" and not move forward in it. I have great ideas and such about presentations to give every other month to the detachments, newsletter, email lists etc. But no i'm met with someone's idea of "military planning" and instead we spend our time trying to figure out how we are going to figure out what we are going to do....seems like a waste of time for me! And he interrupts me as well! Like i'm giving people too much to think about! I don't need 8 planning meetings to get this program rolling, that's why they put me in the position that they did!
Oh well i'm complaining! Hubby is up...appears he knew I was gone because my shadow (my little min pin) got out of bed and she's not as sneaky as I am trying to get out from underneath the covers! It's off to emailing!
Thursday, October 20, 2005
On the Road Again
I'm ready...I guess...sound confident don't I? I'm a little scared because I have gotten so used to my "life" here and now it's being turned upside down...I had a schedule, routines (no matter how boring) and a simple go to the grocery store kind of life....now it's going to be different. Can't wait though I like to think of it as an adventure. Will be posting from the road and you can read all about my "adventures".
Going on the SouthBeach diet too so hopefully that goes well. I got hubby to keep me motivated now...and to get lots of "exercise...or did I say sexercise" in LOL
Thursday, October 13, 2005
Marsha Marsha Marsha!
So life has a funny way of turning the tables on you...about a month ago or less I bought a new dress for The Navy Ball which is a formal event held every year. It's a great time...dinner, dancing, drinking with a bunch of sailors! But I get a new dress each year...So $150 for the dress, $85 for some fancy jewelry to go with it, $70 for hair touch up and an up do, $40 for a manicure/pedicure, $80 for a hotel room, $20 for dry cleaning a uniform, $50 to get the ribbons and such for hubby's uniform that he got since he wore it last, $40 for the tickets (thankfully I have shoes allready...many pairs to chose from actually LOL) I'm ready to go the ball and be as beautiful as ever....WOW when you spell it out like that it seems like a lot of money for a dry beef dinner and some cake and a DJ that always plays the "chicken dance"!
Well the drama begins....Monday we were helping my mom renovate the new barn/corral she bought at the city corrals in Wyoming....when I went to get some screws for my hubby who was hanging boards on the inside of the stall...I was walking towards him and I have NO idea what happened but next thing I know i'm a deer in headlights with a 2x4 headed towards my face!! BAM!! Quicker than you would believe the thing was timed perfectly because it did not hit me on my head or miss me by an inch...The end of it scraped down my forehead and hit me on my nose!! Well I covered my face as tears sprang to my eyes and I kept saying I'm okay I'm okay! Hubby was crowding all around me because he was scared he would pull my hands back and see a bloody eye area because he thought it hit me in my eye...I was crying (it hurt like hell!) and saying I'm okay but is it bad?!? Because we have the Ball!! Mom felt bad, hubby felt bad, Pip's felt bad and I had a bitch of a headache!
Thankfully not much swelling on my nose, no black and blue marks just some big scabs on my forehead and nose. It hurts pretty bad still like there is a bruise there but no visible signs of any. After i recovered and could laugh about it hubby and we had a good laugh when we said "Marsha Marsha Marsha!"
We've had a good time thinking of funny one liners to tell people when they ask what happened to my face....But actually people have been pretty funny...they see it, but don't ask about it rather pretend it's not there like when you have something sticking out of your nose and nobody wants to be the one to point it out...But then when I say something about it they are always "OOOHHHH that is what happened! I was wondering!" Hubby thought we wouldn't get pictures this year since I have "scaby face" as i call it...I am thinking how else will I be able to hold it over his head in 20 years that 4 after getting back from Iraq/Kuwait he hit me in the face with a 2x4!! I want proof!!!
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
Living Alone
When I get my dinner now and go to the living room to eat i'm a little surprised when there is someone else sitting there! My dearest hubby has chosen that cushion to sit on....it's a little odd and now I am trying to adjust sitting somewhere else but old habits are hard to break (If they weren't I wouldn't be smoking now would I?) When I take my shower it's never been a big deal if I used all the hot water...now it is cause I feel bad as I see him getting into a shower with cold water! I like to make Cinnamon Bun coffee..he likes Folgers so I made two pots.
I think it really hit me that someone was living with me again on his first full day here when I fell asleep and when I woke up I thought I would go grab some of the wonderful cheeseball that was in the fridge and some triscuit's and have me a snack...after all I left it some of it the night before. SURPRISE! While I was asleep someone had eaten my cheeseball! I feel kinda like Goldilocks and the three little bears "Someone has been eating my porridge"! But I guess if coffee and cheeseball is the only real things I have to get over I would gladly do that and so much more to have him home!
Thursday, October 06, 2005
My Seabee Is Home
Making Changes
For those that know me well, you know I get bored easily. So I was bored with the template so I am currently in the process of self teaching myself to make it better. I will be updating the page to better suit my own wants and it will be ever changing from now on!
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
Viet Nam War Memorial
Pictures
History I Miss Out On
I think one of the most interesting things about being there for me being from the West was the fact that there is so much history there. I get this feeling whenever I go to the east and I drive by some of the towns and buildings because out west if it's been around since the mid 1800's it's history for us. I went to the Smithsonian Museum of American History and they have an exhibit there about ONE house and the all the different families that have lived there for the past 250 years. It was amazing...there were revoluntinists, slaves, abolitionists, WWII wife and the list goes on and on...And I was reading the information on how to research your OWN house's history and find out who lived there before you and how look around my own house and think... well my mother and father in law built it so there's not much research I need to do except call them up on my cell phone! So you don't get the rich history of the lives that came before you here.
To look at a house and imagine past presidents, congressman and influential people that have really molded our past sitting on the porches smoking, drinking tea or an after dinner drink discussing politics and shaping our great nation. It's just amazing....
Here I look at saloons where a bandit had a last shot of whisky before robbing the stage coach! Go figure...welcome to the Wild Wild West!
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
A New Reader
Honey I'm home!
I'm headed to pick up the dog, develope some pics for my daughter to take to school and have to drop by the reserve center...apparently they owe ME money from my trip to San Diego and need my checking account information. Now if only they would pay the $1800 or so that they owe my hubby we will be set! Mine is only maybe $50! Dinner and a movie LOL
Check back tommarrow most likely for stuff on my trip that I'll post....Going to write something tonight.
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
New Video
Okay I have posted a new video at the bottom of the blog....in tribute to my wonderful loving hubby who is right now flying above the world somewhere on his way home. Well close to home anyway! He will be at his demob site for a few days...and says that because it's my fault that I'm going to Washington instead of visiting him there he has to stay at one of the single guy's beachfront house on his 4 day leave....oh I bet twisting that arm hurts doesn't it honey? He's planning on getting another tattoo while he is there...Something to do with the Seabee's but he hasn't decided yet...I told him he deserved it....I deserve another one too but it took too long to decide on the one I got on my lower back I would hate to see how long it takes to figure out the next one!
I made this video as a tribute to him....when I get back from my trip on Sunday I will post the other one that I made for him of pictures of us. A few of the pictures on this video are from Desert Storm and you can tell because the quality is not as good! He is my American Soldier and the love of my life! 14 months has been a long time but then again it's just like yesterday that he left....I can't wait till he gets back home in a couple weeks....
Angry Angel
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
Something Interesting To Say
Thought our pay problem was fixed...it is not. They issued us a check for $1300 which isn't even the amount that they took from us last month! So we are still working on that. Good news though....
Hubby might be back in the country within a week! Wish I could go and see him, he is going to travel to the same place he left out of but he will be flying in the day before I fly to Washington DC but luckily he will be doing the demob process till at least after i get back home. I was afraid he might be the one coming to get ME at the airport! This would be 2 weeks earlier than he thought....which is great. I have odd feelings about this but may decide to explain later on...for now i'm still sorting through my mind. As you can see still not thinking of anything that is interesting to say!
Had surgery. All went well...it was scheduled for 10:30 am they told me to be there at 9:30 am. FINALLY around 11 am they come in and give me an IV after I have been undressed wearing a "shower cap" and a hospital gown for 1 1/2 and say "Did the nurse tell you she made a mistake when she scheduled the surgeries?" Umm no...what's that mean? "Well right now there are still 2 people in front of you and they have surgeries lasting 1 1/2 hours....She accidently only gave 30 minutes for each surgery rather than 1 1/2 hours." Okay great news (insert sarcastic rolling of eyes here)...not good when they ask if you would like a book and they bring you a NOVEL...I said no I want some onion rings I haven't eaten for 14 hours! LOL Finally went in at 2, in recovery at 3:30 and out of the hospital on my way home by 4:30. Got my prescriptions, heating pad, some KFC (rootbeer float and a biscuit after 19 hours of not eating is good for the soul! ) and was headed home to sleep!
Woman next to me in recovery was a bit mentally handicapped....so when she woke up she was crying and screaming for her "mommy and chicken soup" (She looked to be about 40) . I asked the nurse if I said anything crazy or embarrassing when I woke up..she said no I was fine. Very groggy barely out of the anesthia and the DR comes by and asks if I have any questions...I carefully remove my oxygen mask and say "Yes when can I have sex again?" LOL Told hubby he probably thinks i'm some nympho or something...Hubby said in a very calm voice..."Well that is a very good question to ask honey I'm happy that you thought of it...now how long did he say? Cause I will be home soon!" <---pervert! LOL I know that 14 months in the sand will do that to you...okay I lie he was like that before! It's only gotten progressively worse!
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
One Less Stressor
Yay! The important people have helped us with our pay problem...according to EQCM we will be getting a supplement check with the amount that they so quickly and WRONGLY took out of my hubby's checks over the last two months....we will know by Friday when and how much exactly but if i've done my calculations correctly it should be about $2700 dollars! Finally I can pay ALL the bills now and breathe a sigh of relief! So things are looking up...Hubby sent me this picture and I thought it was really neat looking with the sunset behind him.....He has no idea when it was taken or by who but he got it and thought he would share...He's dirty, sandy, sunburnt and silly but he's mine! He's the one with the radio and pistol.
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
Quarter Life Crisis
I always thought I would get back to it...then months turned into years...and soon I had a 6 year old who needed clothes and food and so I looked at her and knew that I couldn't put her life on hold to follow my dream...I had to get a job that paid well and keep plugging along at life. Soon I was looking at my dream--realizing that I was soon to be VERY OLD (okay 27 LOL) and so I began to add up the time for a bachelor's degree, law school, being a nobody at a law firm and finally making money at what...40 plus?!? For those in those age ranges I mean no offense...But it is an awfully long time to be poor and then finally make money when it's almost time to retire!
So everything else has just been a space filler...something to give me a paycheck but it's not what is in my heart! I have had dreams....being a nurse, a realtor, truck driver (LOL Still going to do that but that's okay !), Insurance Estimator (did that for years) Horse Trainer (Okay seriously that is a dream LOL) but nothing that compares to my dream of being a lawyer. I LOVE college. I really do...everything about it! I was my most happiest in life while in school... So I think I decided what to do when I grow up (yay only 28 going on 29 now!)
Tommarrow I am sending requests for my transcripts and see where I stand...hell it's been too long I blocked it all out of my memory on what classes I have taken for sure LOL Then I am going to compare it to a list of general education and other requirements for a couple schools that I have chosen...Then buy a book for CLEP exams. I know I can test out of some...I have done entirely too well in school and on my ACT's that I took so many lonnnnnggggg years ago not to...And i've only become more educated as life has thrown me into so many different careers. And concentrate on doing that and then put in an application. Maybe a few online courses in the next year...Will need to save up some money before I can do that and hubby needs to finish getting his Associates degree otherwise he won't make Chief when he is eligible here soon and that is important and on more of a timeline...
But that is what I'm going to do...I've been successful in every job I've ever had...promotions have always come to me based on merit because i'm just that over achiever type of person. Will being a lawyer still be what is in my heart in a few years? Possibly...but there is time I have decided...lots and lots of time...I'm not that old...and I have a husband that supports me in whatever I do. So we shall see!
I got things to do honestly why am I here?
Tommarrow I am calling the Air Force clinic near here. They really upset me on Friday and for the past 2 weeks. Not going to get into it but it's just their being inconsiderate. If you aren't in the AF then you dont' mean shit to them and they will let you know! I think the real problem with Military Clinics is that the doctor's there don't give a crap....You aren't a customer, they don't need to treat you good or have good service because what does it matter if you don't go there? That they see one less patient but still get paid the same amount of money! You being treated so badly by them and talked to so rudely that you are in tears when you get through or being strung along to get medicine that they themselves have said you need due to the test results that they ordered doesn't make one bit of difference...they will still get check on the 1st and the 15th. Well im' going to be one of many who stand up and say "Your clinic is awful!"
There's nothing that makes them strive for good service, no reward for keeping their patients. So in the meantime you just have to buck it up and go there or else nothing...I mean it is seriously ridiculous! The commander told me to call them and talk to their customer complaint department. I am going to and be very professional and explain to them that given my position as ombudsman for the reserve center how I will have to honestly tell the reserve families when they call me and ask how the service is at Hill that they suck!
Great just one more thing to write down tonight...hmmmmm I do much better under pressure maybe I will wait till Friday night to write my notes for my speech!
Monday, September 12, 2005
Monday
Hubby is no longer flying into Gulfport he is now going to be headed to Florida. Would like to be able to afford to fly there and spend 4 days hanging out in Florida with him but due to the Navy messing up his pay for the past 6 weeks I doubt we will have the money for that. Although we are working on it and have made it quite an issue so now we got the "big ones" involved. Next step is Congressman ! Although I mentioned that (people jump when you say that LOL) but I am trying to follow the chain and get it squared away within the military system. So hope to see something happen in the next couple of days.
Wanted to buy him one of those tshirts and send it to him so he could wear it home..."Happiness is Iraq in my rearview mirror" but that will only happen if we get money in the next couple of days otherwise it won't make it in time.
391 days...seems like forever and yet seems like yesterday at the same time he's been gone. 3.28 weeks according to his countdown clock last night. I have been here before....told him we got down to 2.23 weeks last time and started back at 6 months! He said "Nope definately coming home this time you can count on it!" Well not much to say for now will visit again later tonight.
Saturday, September 10, 2005
9/11 Recruit Story aka Our Love Story
I remember where I was when it happened, right out of O.W's War of the worlds...I had dropped off my daughter and just gotten in the car and turned on the radio and it was 7:30 local time and I was on my way to work. I don't need to tell you there was no work to be done that day...nobody called...nobody came in. The ones that did, stayed and watched the TV my boss had ran home to get rather than asked about their cars. It didn't seem important anymore. Day turned into night and it still didn't seem real....my husband and I talked about things and it wasn't long before he got the phone call I remember picking up the phone and they said "This is XXX from the Reserve Center is Petty Officer XXX there?"....Make sure your bag is packed and you can be reached at all times, you've been put on alert.
The phone calls started from family and friends because they all wanted to know if he would be called up....and of course my husband being the calm person he is told people "Stop f*^%ing asking me I will know when i'm headed out if something is going on! Until I have orders to go I'm not going!" I must admit I was one of those people but he likes to sleep with me so he didn't get that mean with me! Let me give you a bit of background....
We met in the fall of 1997. Wow seems like a long time when I say it like that! I was 20 (course he thought I was 21 but that is another story!) and he was just out of the Army. We began dating and for years ahead we faced challenges that almost broke our spirit in each other. We broke up, dated other people but always came back to each other realizing that we were meant to be. But he was always insistant he would NEVER get married again (after 2 marriages he was done...a high school sweetheart who left him while in Korea for 2 years and an awful woman who tried to take his spirit as well as his son) I accepted the fact that for NOW I would be a girlfriend....didn't mean I didn't love him or he didn't love me but that was what it was going to be. We lived our life like we were married the committment was there but I had told him that one day it wouldn't be enough for me...one day I would wake up and realize I was some 40 year old girlfriend and want more. But we went on until 2001 that way. He went to drill weekend that first time a week afterwards....and he came home.
I remember he was sitting on the couch and I was in the kitchen and asked him
"Did they tell you anything at drill? Are you going anywhere?" I was met with silence....so I said "Honey!" (little louder this time) and asked again...silence....So i decided it was time for me to come out of the kitchen and he was sitting there still...So I asked again (can't say i'm not persistant) and looking straight ahead still wearing his uniform with a look on his face I hadn't seen before he said...
"What would you do?"
"What do you mean what would I do?"
"What would you do!" (looking at me now as I stand there holding the dishtowel)
"Once again what do you mean what would I do?"
"What the f*ck would you do if I was called away for a year or longer?!?" (so now i get a little angry that he is yelling and me and how dare he ask me such a stupid question!)
"I wouldn't do ANYTHING!" ( I have no idea exactly what he is talking about... I mean what kind of question is "What would you do?" but I figured that answer is the best I can come up with right now)
" You would do something...you would leave...you'd go back to Wyoming with your mother!! You wouldn't stay because we're not married and there is no reason for you to stay!!" (oh no he did not just say that! And yelling at me to boot?)
"You are right I would do something! (now i'm pissy) I would do something...you wanna know what?!? (shaking the dishtowel at him) I would get up in the morning, get my daughter ready for school, take her to daycare, go to work, pick her up from daycare, come home, make dinner, give her a bath, go to bed, and then you know what I would do the next day? (hands on my hips) I would wake up, get her ready for school, take her to daycare...Do you see where i'm going with this? HOW DARE YOU! say that I would just take off and that there is NO COMMITTMENT here just because we aren't married...I moved here for YOU! I have a job here, a house, a life here because YOU are here. You are the one saying that "it's just a piece of paper that we are committed" I made a committment long ago to you and if there is no such committment on your side then yeah I might as well leave if that's what you are saying to me"
He left the room ...
A week later he wanted to go with me to the mall (mind you christmas shopping season was begining and he HATES the mall...I'm not sure he has even been but maybe once or twice since then) to get something for my cell phone and he said he wanted to walk around a bit we finally made our way back to where we started to the jewelry store (next to the cell phone place). And he walked up the wedding ring section (You know the salespeople pounce on you when you walk over there) and he said "I like that one...You know you are picking out your christmas present dont' you?" I told him "Yeah but you know you still have to ask me don't you?"
So that is our love story...and my 9/11 recruitment story as a military spouse...It wasn't a sense of patriotism or pride that made this happen because of 9/11....maybe it was his fear of losing something he cared about BECAUSE of his patriotism and pride and love for his country...he knew at some point he would go. He volunteered to go back then and everyday since then. I tease him that he just wanted to make sure I could use the commissary when he was gone if he went...But I wonder if he feared me leaving or if it was in that moment that he realized that I really did love him and he actually realized that he loved me that it wasn't just something for the now but something something for the future.
He left over a year ago...and I have been through a lot here at home because he's not here but knowing that he loves me and his letters telling me that it would be hell over there knowing that if I wasn't at home for him writing him letters, sending him packages and supporting him in everything that he does makes me happy to have been recruited as a military spouse and never having a bit of regret that I signed the dotted line and I will re-up as long as we live.
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
I need a remote control
Today's Thoughts
Smelled cut grass all day...maybe it's a hint that I should cut mine. Front lawn is long..Back lawn is a jungle but the cat and dog have fun in it.
Got my last shot before the surgery on the 20th. My butt hurts and they were freaking out about the account balance because Tricare hasn't paid. Convinced them not to worry.
Took a nap-5 hours. Great now i'm up all night.
Watched things today...I mean really watched them. Sat at the backwindow and watched the cat hunting a mouse-she found her prey. Watched people walk down the street. Watched the man across the street nailing shingles to a roof and can hear the sound of his nail gun tapping through the noise.
Picked up garbage around the house and cleaned out the fridge-Needed to be done last week but haven't felt like it...
Did nothing all day long and feel like I did nothing-going for a walk later on...today has been an odd day.
My Newest Engineer
Okay I came across a blog that was talking about adopting a group of 500 Combat Engineers to be adopted. This is being ran by a wonderful woman named PJ ( to email her click here) Please visit the and keep up with the wonderful efforts of this adventure adopting out the 150th Engineer Battalion. She is still short on her goal of having everyone of them adopted but definately on her way! I of course adoped one and have sent my first letter out to him and waiting on dearly beloved DFAS to get their head straight so I can send a package! Sorry even my adopted "boys" don't get a package if my hubby doesn't and until then I don't have the funds to get them anything!
I will keep updated on what goes on with my newest adoption. I have other soldiers and veterans adopted through the Angel's N Camouflage organization that I have been a part of for quite awhile. I have linked both of these under my links section. I encourage you to play a part in making sure that the soldiers/sailors/marines know they are thought of back home. If it's just a postcard or a thank you. Please show your support and send SOMETHING to our deployed and wounded letting them know we are behind them 100% and their families as they are away from their families or recovering.
Engineers are very close to my heart as my husband was in the Army as a Combat Engineer for 8 years prior to his enlistment in the Seabees. 2nd, 5th, and 10th Engineer Battalions for him! When he went to Desert Storm he was in the Army.
United Airlines sucks!
Cost of my plane ticket from Utah to NOLA on October 4th returning on October 10th????!!! The suspense is killing you....$241.00 Thank you Delta! Now I know at this point it doesn't make a difference but that article just brought it all back up to the surface...sorry had to go off!
I wrote them an email asking for an explanation as to WHY they would say they are offering a discount to military families/members but not when they have to change an existing flight when we all know how much notice you normally get for sure as to when they are coming home... still waiting to hear for sure whether they will actually take them to Gulport or fly them somewhere else for their debriefing like Port Hueneme. Guarantee though United won't be getting my money!
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
Contractors
Intimidation, attacks take toll on contractors in Iraq <-these are the Iraqi contractors being trained by our military to rebuild their own country being killed by their own "citizen" (that term is meant very loosely there) hmmm where have we seen that happen before...citizens needing a strong infrastructure again and yet certain people not allowing that to happen.... You can see my post earlier regarding the attacks on our Army Corp of Engineers the other day there in NOLA....hmmmm odd dont' you think?
Okay i'm done let's get back to Iraq....The cost of security to protect these contractors (wait let's call them....useful citizens for now) is seriously eating into the budget for the reconstruction...now if didn't have to use 5 billion dollars to train and equipt the Iraqi Police (who by the way their own "people" <---insurgents are killing and attacking their families) then we could get a lot more done...but i'm sure it's not right to attack those "poor people" who chose to murder, intimidate and harm the contractors who are only trying to make a free Iraq a better place to live for their own families as well as others....I mean after all we are the monsters right?!?
""He goes to sites, handing out workers a letter saying, 'I know where you
live, and I'll kill you and your family,' " McCoy said. "He's out there kidnapping and killing these people." (speaking of Abu Bakr, who leads a splinter cell of al-Qaeda in Iraq)
I'm sure he's a very nice man on the inside who only wants a peaceful end to all this...and if we weren't there he would not be doing that...Good thing i'm not so jaded and I can think optimistically! (okay i really almost spit my ice cream that time I swear!)
A Confession?
- That they think it might be a ploy to simply sway public opinion about whether or not he "commited a crime"? "Is this the fabrication of Talabani or what? Let's not have a trial on TV. Let the court of law, not the media, make its ruling on this," Alani said. Okay seriously since when has the court of law or legal issues ever come into play there for a very long time? Oh wait...everything was decided by law there...just like the elections too bad they were all ran by ONE person!
- This scares me the most..."The perception that Saddam was being convicted before a trial could add the Sunni anger." This could have dire consequences for our forces over there as the Sunni make up the majority and stronghold within the insurgency...this could spell danger and an uproar amongst the fighting that they are experiencing there...this could definatly be worse than the riots caused by Newsweeks' Koran Scandal earlier this year. I just hope that if this is a ploy it doesn't have an affect on our men and women in uniform (fighting the fight that is just and right)
- "Saddam's legal team said it plans to challenge the starting date as allowing insufficient time for a proper defense. Defense lawyers also said they would challenge the trial's legitimacy." Now this one just made me laugh outloud and almost spit Banana Split Ben & Jerry's Ice Cream across my monitor...Ummmmm let's see he's been in custody since December 2003....two years?!? Two years isn't enough time...and PLEASE I think questioning the legitimacy is like the pot calling the kettle black dont' you think?
Monday, September 05, 2005
Where are we again?
NEW ORLEANS - Police shot and killed at least five people Sunday after gunmen opened fire on a group of contractors traveling across a bridge on their way to make repairs, authorities said. -ap
What about our apache's backing up the blackhawks and other aid workers in the sky? Apparently if we are shooting at them we need them!
Besides the lawlessness, civilian deaths and uncertainty about their families, New Orleans' police have had to deal with suicides in their ranks. Two officers took their lives, including the department spokesman, Paul Accardo, who died Saturday, according to Riley. Both shot themselves in the head, he said. Sad.....very very sad...
I only have one question as I watch the coverage and some of the people there...I understand the sick, the old, the children, and even the many people that are so overweight that they can't move by themselves...but I see men and women in their 20's and 30's that are honestly in better shape than myself...WHY DID THEY NOT WALK OUT? I don't care if I had to SWIM out I would have left...shown up at someone's house once I got to a safe place that wasn't affected and said "Please get me some help" why just sit there and WAIT for someone to come and give you food and shelter and water? I just really don't understand and have heard the same echoed from other people....Why did they not just walk out....leave...they had DAYS and DAYS to evacuate...I'm sure that if someone was walking out someone else with a car would have given them a ride...I would have put a backpack on and left by foot, bicycle anything to get out of there! I would have ridden a Hotwheel of my child if I thought it could get me someplace safe. I will never understand it....I guess I haven't gotten to the point when I will sit back and wait for the govt to hand me assistance and rescue.....I would have found it myself.
The evac of the people left there needs to have order...otherwise what do you have when you move a large group of people to a spot to evac them and there is no order in it but you just make a mass exodus? You get the SuperDome or the Convention Center and we saw how well that worked....I'm sorry to see everything that is going on but it has to be an organized effort.
PTSD
(This is their mission statement)
Mission
The mission of the PTSD Alliance is to support
PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder) survivors by advocating for their rights in the American society; finding assistance for them through public and private resources; and to educate the public on the effects of PTSD on the survivor.
This is something that we will need to deal with for service members and the first responders but also for the people of Katrina that have seen the devastation...My local newsperson said it last night "They didnt' say much on the plane here from NOLA but the empty haunted look in their eyes said it all and will surely be there forever into the future"
Flat Angel
Sunday, September 04, 2005
A Bitter Pill
I quit working months ago and I think that in late June that started to wear on me. But then hubby came home on R&R and everything was fine. I'm so used to being independent, working, stressed that this time alone in my house has started to overwhelm me. Especially when the Navy messes up his pay (I pray that it is fixed and we will get the money back on the 15th like they say...I have faith!!)
Daughter is living with my mom and I hate to say it but when I go there and she seems happier than she has been here in Utah it kills me....it causes an ache in my heart I can't even explain. My mom tells me that when i'm not there she threatens her in moving back to Utah with me...( i've been on the other side of that conversation for years...the grass isn't always greener hey Pip's?) But when hubby gets back and returns to the Reserves we are going truckin (I refer to it as our adventure) and hopefully it will work out the way we want and soon we will have our dreams come true...and we can all be together again...
I guess it's just hard to admit that I NEED my husband as much as I do. He's my best friend and my love...but that doesn't mean I didn't have some sort of childish fantasy that without him here I would be fine...I was for awhile...but 14 months drags on and on...He's a Seabee for gods sakes! That's suppose to be 6 mos! Silly me I married the one with a sense of pride and work ethic!
Moving on to another night...guess he isn't coming on tonight. It's a long weekend I think I will sleep in again....
Biloxi Gulfport Area
Seabees Can Do
Gulfport, Miss. (Sept. 3, 2005) – U.S. Navy Seabee,
Constructionman SeamanMichael Jackson, assigned to Naval Mobile Construction Battalion One (NMCB-1),Alpha Company, fills a portable potable water tank for the South Mississippi Kidney Center in North Gulfport, Miss. The center is currently treating more than 300 dialysis patients with the use of emergency generators. The
lifesaving water the Navy is delivering to the center is used for filtering patient's
blood. Without this vital component, patients would be forced to travel to the
next city for treatment. The Navy's involvement in the humanitarian assistance
operations is led by the Federal Emergency Management Agency (FEMA), in conjunction
with the Department of Defense. U.S. Navy photo by Photographer'sMate 2nd
Class Michael B. Watkins (RELEASED)
It's great the work they are doing while their own families are living in shelters. Bravo Zulu to our Seabees for showing their "Can Do" attitude in times of need!
Flat Angel
**Update on the Flat Angel project...it is now known as "Flat Angel's USO tour!" LOL I told hubby to make sure that he got a picture of Flat Angel with some of his guys over there and I could call it "Flat Angel Supports the Troops" and he is going to do it! But I have mentioned this to a few hero's I know across the US military and now I am going to get pictures from all over! If you would like to be part of Flat Angel please let me know! I would love to attend your local Protest the Protestors gatherings as well!**
Saturday, September 03, 2005
Coming Home!
He's packing up his footlocker to send it home...he did that once before and then I had to actually send a few things BACK to him because that's when he got his orders to extend finally after they told him he was coming home. I told him he should be excited that he will be home to unpack it this time!
This is our last email conversation about it....
Him: well that sounds like fun i don't have any plans either just sitting
around getting my stuff ready to mail home. Now that sounds good mailing my stuff home lol.Me: yeah but you have done that once before LOL so we will see if you
actually are here to unpack it LOL just kidding honey :P I know you won't stay again :) Not with your attitude lately LOL you sound like you are done :) i'm starting to get real excited about it though :)Him: ya me too and your right theres no way i'll stay again. i want to get
back and spend time with you and the kids. i have done my part for now. you can bet i'll have to deploy again some time but not for a couple of years at least lol.Me: yeah well i bet after a year back home with me and the kids you
will be jumping up and down emailing everyone and their dog again to go if the opportunity arises for anyone to go back LOL And i will shake my head and order more priority mail boxes from the post office when you do LOLHim: Well i don't know about a year but you are probably right if they are looking for people to come back i will be the one to say i'll go. you know me thats just the way i am but i think i will be taking full advantage of the 2 years that i have before they can call me back!
So that's my hubby and I thought it was nice to share...
Chief Justice Rehnquist
Toby Keith
Katrina
I wish I could do more than what I can...I have offered help here locally as they have just started to bring evacuees here (up to 2,000) of them but I think that activating people (Natl Guard) and get them along with supplies to the site in 2-3 days is actually quite a feat! WAY TO GO !! I mean you can't just fly everyone there...some have to drive otherwise when they get there they won't have vehicles to rescue people...so being a truck driver I know how long it takes to get places...and with the roads washed away and debris strung everywhere making the major inlets into the city unpassable I think they did a good job. They needed time to gather supplies so the rescue workers there dont' become a burden themselves. We dont' want to have to take care of a bunch of aid workers who need food and water themselves. Or god forbid a place to stay...I'm sure they were all being put up in hotels...oh wait no that's right their lives were mirroring the people there as they were working tirelessly everyday they were there to rescue these people for hours and hours everyday.
But DAMN them! for not responding quickly for all those people who couldn't evacuate. Why have we not heard about the other people that were HIT BY THE HURRICANE?!?! Instead of all the people that were affected by the flooding from their levy system? I mean who knew that if you built a city with the water being held back by concrete barriers that were 17-25 feet ABOVE the city that you might have this happen? Hmmm funny we didn't hear about this effort by the LOCAL SEABEES who's base and families were destroyed....but I'm sure it's a Black Thing as many have chosen to say....I'm sorry if I sound bitter but I'm really broken hearted about this but I only wish people themselves would have taken control of themselves...there's no reason that people should have been beaten with pipes, shot, raped etc....I'm done now...I have to stop otherwise I might say more than is needed....
Friday, September 02, 2005
Travel Centers of America
So I go in tonight as i'm driving home at midnight and buy $45.00 worth of gas....$2.89 a gallon! to get my normal cup of coffee. Well I figure tonight will be different than it was on Monday...they might actually HAVE coffee! Well I still had to tip the big metal pot down to get anything out so apparently they are ALMOST out of coffee. But of course they have NO sugar... and still that nasty cream! So i pay $3.50 for a small container of coffee mate that I could get for a $1.00 elsewhere (You want to talk about price gouging go into a truck stop and try to buy hygeine products or food) and I say to the guy "You are out of coffee" he says "Hmm that's too bad" <----huh?!? You are a truck stop you retard...coffee is as important as diesel! So then I tell him "You are out of sugar as well" he says "Yeah I know" <---oh so i'm not the first one that has mentioned this....Then i ask him if maybe the TA has considered offering a non dairy creamer for those that are lactose intolerant or prefer not to use scarey cream out of a machine....."If you offered a powder cream then I wouldnt' have to pay 3.50 for this little jar to keep in my truck when I stop here 2-4 times a week for coffee. What would the drivers do if they are lactose intolerant and maybe it might be something to think about" he says..." Well i guess if they don't like cream then they should learn to drink their coffee black" Oh you are shitting me right??!?!? So needless to say I had to walk to the restaurant to get sugar for my coffee, took my $3.50 creamer out to my truck and began to form the letter of complaint to the company. It isn't that they don't carry creamer I feel safe using it's that his customer service skills SUCK! I'm sorry but I'm giving that much money to fill up my pickup truck and I'm paying for my coffee and he acts like he's not there to do something for the customer's...I'm sorry that's why they pay you! Well i guarantee when I begin filling up 200 gallons of fuel at $3.00 a gallon....I'll be driving an extra 30 miles to get fuel at the Flying J.
The Family
This is my hubby...what a sexy man :) Course he's not normally so mean looking...but when it's 130 degrees outside you might have that look on your face as well!!
Tuesday, August 30, 2005
An Honorable Place
He grew up in a California and Utah and most of his dad's family lives in the south. He joined the Army at 17-18 and left Utah. This is not his home nor is it where I would stay if he wasn't here. He deserves to be buried somewhere that shows the honor that he had for his country. He told me once that he truely believes that the reason he was put on this earth is to serve his country....He deserves to be buried in a National Cemetary with his fellow hero's. But where? I was looking on the Arlington Site and saw that if he was to be cremated (which is his only request) that his ashes would simply be spread in a certain area with no marker. I don't know if I want that...I want someplace I can go and see him, to talk to him, to honor him. He is MY hero, MY husband and MY bestfriend. I am not sure where I would chose at this time. Thank god I don't have to.
I asked him and of course in his natural method of talking about things such as this he said "Why you got plans for when I get back?" or another comment was "What makes you think I will die first?" I was worried that his mother might want to bury him here in Utah because that is where she is. But this is not his HOME this is just where he lives....One day I will have to figure it out but for now I don't. But I know that it will be an honorable place....
Monday, August 29, 2005
Katrina
I may be affected as well but hopefully not....the people that were suppose to fix my husband's pay are based in Gulfport. So hopefully they did the job they needed to on Friday...if not I don't know if he will get paid or not. Katrina's touch to my life will be so small compared to the devastation and death that they are experiencing there. Their entire lives gone in a wave...I love the ocean and would love to live in a small town there but it is times like t hese that i'm glad that I live surrounded by mountains and desert.
I will be thinking of their future and hope that if I go there in a month that I can see people pulling together as a community and starting to rebuild their lives.
Sunday, August 28, 2005
A Good Neighbor
Tricare Drama Trauma
A Good or Bad Paying Job
So on to my next job I had this week....This goes along with the missing diamond event.... So I went on the hands and knees search all night....Nothing! So I was cleaning my mom's house (she was paying me anyway but obviously I would be looking for the diamond) and I did a very good job vacuuming it. So as I dumped all the contents of the vacuum out on the kitchen floor and was sifting through enough cat/dog hair to make my own chia pet and dust *sneeze* my daughter comes up....That is gross she says! "Awww yes honey but actually it's a job that pays very well if I find my diamond...About $2,000 an hour!" Of course as children think she says to me "Yes but if you don't find it then it really pays badly!!" <----True but like I needed to be a fatalist today! So as I got my hopes up that I found it mixed in the with fur...Nope wait it's not a diamond solitare...only a DOG TOENAIL CLIPPING! *gross* I realized it wasn't doing me any good. I didn't find it. So later that night I put my mom's head light on (I don't know what they are called but those lights you put on your helmet when you go into a cave) and I crawled around in the dark on my hands and knees hoping that this very clear, nicely cut and wonderful diamond would show up and reflect some of the light but it didn't....I loved that diamond it was so pure in color and clarity...We bought a smaller diamond that was higher quality and people would complement me on it all the time. I got out all the paperwork on the many rings my husband has bought me...apparently he bought the diamond replacement on the anniversary band he bought me but I don't have that on my solitare...go figure right?!? Only replacement in case of damage! Not losst....have to check if the homeowners somehow covers it tomorrow! I hate to do it but I might have to play the "Poor left at home Military Wife" thing !!! It's okay if I only use it for good and not evil right?!? Will keep updated on whether I get the diamond again or just a plain walmart band for now.
Thursday, August 25, 2005
The Noises at Night
The quiet hum of the computer as I sit here for hours doing nothing. Chatting with friends from "over there" emailing my husband, waiting for my husband to email me...clicking send recieve in outlook just in case for some reason it didn't check the email automatically and there's an email from him sitting out there in never land. The sound of my dog's toe nails clicking on the wood floor because she is running from the front window to the backdoor thinking she heard something...she hears anything and everything...quick Whisky (the dog) I think i heard the neighbor blink...better run and bark! bark! bark!
Somedays when my daughter isn't here I sit late and night and realize I haven't heard my own voice all day long...I say something outloud just to know it's still there. It sounds odd coming out...like my voice is now foreign to me. People call me and say "i'm sorry to bother you" but there is no bother when the phone rings...it's someone to talk to at least. I once knew someone that said she was afraid she would forget her husbands voice because it had been so long since she talked to him on the phone. I told my husband this and then explained that I would never forget his voice...that it echo's in my mind when i do something silly, or stupid, or I have one of those bad days where I need encouragement. I also hear it when i'm feeling like my pants are too tight and my hair is too crazy....Funny how I can hear his voice and never forget but my own sounds odd when I don't talk outloud for a day.
Odd the things you think about late at night as i sit here...send/recieve...send/recieve....no answer yet tonight.
Owning Stock in Toilet Paper
Let's see I'll start from the beginning...The military has FUBAR'd my husband's pay and I got 1/2 of the amount I should have for August. This made it so I actually had to sell the waverunners to make our mortgage payment. Hubby asked what else I was going to sell before he got home...Told him EVERYTHING if he didn't figure it out! We don't even want to get into the "ex wife's comments regarding child support" She will get it when I get paid...I would be happy to write her a bad check but I doubt that will do either of us any good!! Apparently someone "forgot" to do his paperwork when he VOLUNTEERED to extend for 6 months and all of a sudden they decided to do that paperwork but instead of doing it correctly they took back 4 months of Combat Pay and Taxes. Of course I have it fixed now but have to wait till the 15th of September to see the money again.....So that check will have about 2,000 extra on it! Which is good. Doesn't help pay the bills or buy food at this time but heck I was on a diet anyway right?
Now i get "nascar bumped" on the freeway the other day. I swear this person hit me on purpose. Of course didn't stop even though he's just banged into be going 65 mph! I tried to pull over but the man slowed down so far he wasn't even going 30 mph trying to get it so i couldn't see his liscense plate number I'm assuming. I got that though cause i'm just that good! And his make and model and a description of him....of course I dont think the cops wanted the "Ugly ass punk who hit me and is dead if i see him at the mall " comment so I changed it to "Mid 20's, dark blond hair, blue shirt, slender build" ! There was only slight damage to my bumper luckily I am a "professional" driver because i was able to recover from the impact without over correcting.
Now what happens? Yes it gets better. I lose the diamond out of my wedding ring!! God knows where...and it's not some cheapo Kmart ring either...the diamond alone is worth only about $2000-2500. Chump change for me being so wealthy you know? I am at my mothers today so I have no idea if the insurance policy is still in effect. I emailed my husband and told him and hoped he didn't get mad at me...He wasn't (of course not like there would be a doubt) but he did say if I lost the WHOLE ring he might be mad. So now since we have NO money (see above) I can't even get a cheapo band if the diamond isn't covered....I told him i'm going to look like the cheating wife...tan line no ring! It's got to get better right?
Who's going to Margarittaville and wants to take me?!?!? I travel light.....But i have no money so please make it an all expense paid trip!! Pretty please!! Will write more when I get home and apparently I need to put a reminder on my cell phone so I will remember to post more instead of all at once.
Monday, August 15, 2005
Burnt Out
Hubby is starting to come around about living in a small town and owning horses and being happy....he said it sometimes takes him a little longer than most people to figure out things! It's all good I love him! I've been an emotional mess lately...life has just been getting the better of me and it doesn't help that now i'm going through medication induced menopause (fear the woman with hot flashes at 28!!) I'm looking forward to driving truck don't get me wrong...I love the freedom and the road and all the people that I meet and the fact I get to spend 24/7 with my loving husband---can you tell I like him? But I just am sad about leaving my daughter...
She is happy at my mother's though. That gives me some comfort. I hope that soon once we get the money and can sell the house and get another one with some land that she can be happy with us as a family. Budget Budget Budget is going to be my motto the next year or so in order to save up money! I'm so busy lately getting things ready at the house that sometimes I forget that we need to sleep as humans...maybe that's part of my burn out...we shall see it's time for bed!